Greatly, deeply traumatized and shocked beyond words - But, thanks God, I was safe and sound !!! -

Music : Kings Of Leon - 4 Kicks.
Feeling : Not Good At All - Deeply traumatized, shocked beyond words and miser


I feel downright miserable and traumatized right now.Yes. Greatly traumatized and shocked beyond words ever since I nearly lost my life yesterday. I really wanna burst into tears and cry as if the world's gonna end tomorrow, but somehow, I just can't.


My older brother D, dropped me off at the Bukit Jalil LRT station so that I can take the LRT back to my rented 'crib'. After dropping me off, he told me to take the right LRT transaction, and not to take the one to the 'Ampang' district. Feeling irritated b'cause I was sort of drowsy and sleepy at that moment, I hastily told him a quick 'ok' that I knew what to do and how to head back to my destination. I was also annoyed because he thought that I was stupid and I also feel that as an older brother, he should have just drive me straight back to my rented 'crib' at TBR.


After purchasing the ticket to 'Masjid Jamek', I than asked the lady at the ticket counter on which transaction and which way should I take " left - or -right ". She than told me to take the the middle one, which is to "Sentul Timur".


Skipping the irrelevant details, thus, I have reached Masjid Jamid LRT. To buy my ticket back to Wangsa Maju LRT, I have to cross the "main busy road" to get to the opposite LRT station.


Everytime, when I cross this main busy and dangerous road, I would have stuck closely for life to the group of pedestrian/people who are crossing the same road as me. This is because, the main road located in between both of the two "Masjid Jamek" LRT station is extremely busy, dangerous - because the vehicles there are constantly zooming and racing liked lunatics, thus not stopping for anyone that easily.


It was this moment that this "horrible" incident happened. This time, I crossed the main road all by myself, and do not stick to the little group of pedestrian liked I always used to. I was also having a slight headache, maybe from the lack of sleep and feeling kind of drowsy. Anyways, the group which are far behind, have already crossed to the opposite road before me, thus making me feel very dissapointed.


Being the safe person that I always am, I took out my hand as usual as a 'stop' sign so that the vehicles would slow down and stop for me when I was hurrying and running to cross to the opposite direction. But, instead, I got the biggest shock of my life and was probably traumatized waaaayyy beyond words when all the vehicles did not stop for me. Instead, they keep moving on and on..., and was quickly moving on the direction towards me. Omigosh.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I nearly freezed tracks. To think that I would probably have lost my life at that very moment. * Touch wood for infinite times *


Luckily, I managed to run to the opposite direction just in time, before that damn blady asshole murderer of a car and motorcycle sped off in a blink of an eye. Those muthafuckers. I swear that if i have a gun and it's legal, I would have shoot all of them dead so that they can all burn, rot and perish in hell. After the incident, I was sooooooo... deeply traumatized and shocked beyond words that I think that I became static and could no longer move anymore. I looked around and saw some other pedestrian staring and looking at me in a shock and hynotized way. Another bunch of muthafuckers idiots !!! They must have seen that terrifying incident.


Yes... And, all they are able to do is to stare, stare and stare. But, one thing I am sure is that, they won't help and they won't do anything about it. Well, let's put one of those staring nincompoop pedestrian in my shoes, and see what's their reaction when the same horrible incident that I experienced happened to them.


Still shocked beyond words and greatly traumatized, all I wanted to do was to cry and cry and cry in the LRT back to Wangsa Maju, until I reached my rented 'crib' in TBR.


After buying some things at JJ, I than boarded a taxi back to TBR. At home, I immediately telephoned my dad and related the horrible incident to him. I told him that, luckily, I managed to cross to the opposite direction just in time to save my life. My dad was shocked and he said that "Thanks God" I was safe. Yes. That night, I did pray to the Lord Jesus Christ and also to the Virgin Mary. Pray to thanks that I was safe and sound and also to thank you that nothing unfortunate have happened to me. * touch wood and also good grief *


However, I just can't seem to be able to eat anything because I was really shocked beyond words and greatly traumatized. The only thing I was able to consume was water, because after all, I was feeling extremely thirsty and my throat was dry.


Before going off to bed that night, I telephoned my brother and told him about that "horrible" incident. He than told me that I can take the underground train, or whatever it is, to get to the opposite direction. With this, I do not have to cross that stupid, hazardous and dangerous main road. I'm not sure what my bro is talking about, but I do remember seeing an underground thing...or something.


The thing I have learnt from this "horrible" incident is that, life is very short, so you have to treasure and value your life because you never know what is going to happen next. The other important lesson I have also learn is that I am never going to cross that pathethic murderous main road again, ever since now I know that I can do it the underground way. And, if I have to, I would always stick to the the group of people and hang on to them for life when crossing the main road to the opposite direction.


Even now, I was still greatly traumatized and shaken over yesterday's incident. After all, I am still very young, you know...????????? I have still much, much to live for in life and I also have a happy and loving family who truly love and cares for me. My dad, my mum, my older brother and all my uncles, aunties and cousins( even though some of my relatives get on my nerves ) I haven't even got into University, yet even say to graduate out from it. I haven't even pass my final foundation year repeat paper so that I can proceed to Uni to do my degree in Journalism. Aften when I graduate out, I also want a great and high paying career. The truth is, I want to succeed in life and be "somebody". I want both of my parents and everyone in my family to be proud of me. I want to earn a huge salary so that I can provide both of my parents with a comfortable life. I want to repay both of them for taking good care of me since I was a baby and installing all the good values that they have taught me. My parents are extremely nice people who give more than they take and could get along just with almost everyone else. Even though both of them are not rich, but still they have worked hard to provide me and my brother the life they never had when they were young. Their motto is, as long as they could afford it, they would give us what we want and what we desire. Thus, I am grateful for both of my parents for sending me to piano, art, swimming lessons and tae-kwondo when I was very young. Although my brother was much better skilled in swimming and tae-knowndo compared to me( he could swim all the styles - freestyle, butterfly, breaststroke and he also completed his black belt in tae-kwondo at the tender age of 11 ) As for me, at least I've completed and passed my Grade 8 in pianoforte. Not to boast, I was quite talented and good at art too. I think that it was a natural born talent, for I found that I was much,much better in art compared to playing the piano. Not to say that my skills on the piano was that bad. * Rolls eyes *


The truth is that, I am afraid to die and is damn right terrified of it. Don't even mention that dreaded word to me. Yes, I do not want to die. But tell me, who isn't??????


I just want to live my life happily and do things the way I want to be. So all you muthafuckers out there, if you have anything againsts me, I have only 3 words for you. GO TO HELL...!!!!!!!


My life is my life. I can go anywhere I want, do whatever I please and just live my life how I want to live it. It's not liked I commit murder, rape, kill or rob some poor mite. No, I don't do that. So, please leave me alone when you ought to.


You want to know what makes me unhappy and totally depressed? The answer lies in you people. Yes. It's YOU people who are the cause of my misery. Not leaving me alone when you ought to, and leaving me alone when you shouldn't. So, think about it. Ummmmm....eeemmm, I should probably know by now that you muthafuckers do not have any brains at all because that's why you can't think and never do understand what I am talking about. Hmmmmm.....* sigh *


I want my life to be always happy, perfect and free from all that stupid crapshit in life. And also, I do not want yesterday's terrfying and horrible incident to ever, ever happen again. It's scary and it have certainly scared the living daylights out of me. And, it's not even my fault. Obviously.


But, if all those muthafuckers keep on making trouble for me, how am I going to live a happy life??? After having a great career when I've graduated out, I might even continue with my Masters and PHD. Who knows, I might even meet the guy of my dreams and marry him so that we can live happily ever after liked Cinderella and her prince. Just liked in the fairy tales. Imagine. Good looking, brilliance, extremely well educated, tons of personality, filthy rich and most importantly, he loves me, cares for me and accepts me for who I am. On the fact, he must also treat both of my parents and my family equally well too. This is because I will not ever be interested in a guy who doesn't like my parents and my family. Not even for all the money and the good looks in the entire world. Mwahahahaha......But than, reality check. A guy liked this will probably find a girl the same status as him. So, will he ever be interested in me? Unless, of course with my determination, I managed to upgrade myself to a certain status or somehow, I managed to touched his heart with my charms and wit. Arrrrrggghhh... whatever. Only time will tell. But, * sob sob *, I do want my Prince Charming( the guy of my choice & must also be approved 101% by my parents ), or else I become a nun or end up as an old spinster for the rest of my life.


If fairy tales do happen in this cruel, cruel and dog-eat-dog world, later, I do want a couple of lovely kids with my "Prince Charming". Both of us would work hard to raise a family and together, we will install and pass on the good values that we have to our children. Our children will also be the best of the best and we also make sure that both of us could provide them with the best of everything in the world. On the other hand, we also want our children not only to grow up as intelligent and beautiful kids, but also happy with life too.


In conclusion, I want the best of everything in life till the very last days of my ripe old age life. But tell me, who doesn't want??? Even now, I haven't even been to a real rock concert, not even to a lame Westlife show. I haven't even met the entire band of " The Strokes ". I haven't even met the current love of my life, Mr. Julian Casablancas( lead singer of The Strokes ). I know, he's married. So...??????? He's soooooooooo..... cute and talented, and that's what it matters. Other than that, I also liked his personality, his attitude. Well... I like everything about him. If could, I want to take a picture with the entire band, with their shoulders draped around me, together with me making a very cheesy smile. I also want an individual photo taken together with Julian( his arms draping across my shoulder, me blushing and who knows, maybe a deep, long french-kiss ??? ) I wish.... * naughty naughty me * but hehehe...you never know.


Below are a list of my current favourite things and my wish lists :


1. To pass through my final repeat paper so that I can proceed to Uni.

2. Julian Casablancas

3. The Strokes

4. A Tiffany diamond cross platinum pendant/necklace worth US2300.00
something( sorry, I've forgotten the exact price. )
http://www.tiffany.com/images/products/zoom_images/11836615_xl.jpg

5. An I-Pod ( or a pink mini i-pod from Mac )

6. The Strokes upcoming third album.

7. To attend a Strokes concert in NYC and meet the entire band in person.

8. All those fuckin retards would leave me alone( when they ought to ) and
not bring me any trouble anymore.

9. Hmmm..., still thinking.



That's all for today. Till the next entry. Adios !!!